Emilie Kiser has returned to social media months after the drowning death of her 3-year-old son, Trigg.
In her first TikTok video since her son fell into the family’s backyard pool in May and died six days later, Emilie Kiser showed herself making an iced coffee before sharing that she was “really nervous right now.”
Telling her followers that she’s “missed, truly, just getting to chat” with them every day, Emilie Kiser said, “I hope that in coming back and sharing a little bit of what I choose to, I can reconnect with you guys and hopefully help anyone who is going through a similar situation.”
Emilie Kiser has more than 4 million followers on TikTok and frequently posted lifestyle content about her family.
“I have obviously been offline for the last little bit,” she continued. “I’m just doing my best every day to figure this out, figure my life out.”
Emilie Kiser said she’s been “taking it day by day” and added she plans to hold the same mindset about sharing content.
“Obviously you guys know that the last few months have been really, really hard, and I’m not going to sugarcoat it. I’m not going to lie. I’m not going to sit here and act like things are fine and dandy,” she said, adding that she doesn’t want her return online “to come off that way.”
Calling content creation “really therapeutic,” Emilie Kiser said she isn’t clear on what a return to social media means at this time.
“I don’t know how much I’m going to be willing to share about my grief journey,” she said. “The last thing I want to do is put myself in a position where I’m sharing too much or I’m not ready to share stuff and I share it.”
Emilie Kiser concluded her message saying that there are “so many things” she does want to speak about, but is “just not ready right now.”
“I don’t know when I’ll be ready,” she continued. “But if you are going through anything similar, I just want to say that I love you and I’m here for you and I understand how hard it is.”
For the remainder of the video, Emilie Kiser shared footage of her cleaning her house. She captioned the four minute video with a white heart emoji.
Emilie Kiser’s husband, Brady Kiser, was home alone with Trigg and their infant son, Theodore, before the drowning on May 12, according to a police report from the Chandler Police Department in Arizona.
Brady Kiser told police that Trigg was in the backyard unsupervised before he found the 3-year-old unconscious in the water. In initial interviews with police, Brady Kiser said he left Trigg alone for three to five minutes, allegedly saying, “I didn’t have a clock, obviously, I don’t know the exact time, but it was moments, it wasn’t minutes.”
Video evidence later showed Trigg was unsupervised for nine minutes, and he was in the water for seven minutes, authorities shared in the report.
In August, Emilie Kiser spoke publicly for the first time since Trigg’s death, sharing a statement on Instagram. In the message, she wrote that she takes “full accountability as Trigg’s mother, and I know I should have done more to protect him.”
“One of the hardest lessons I carry is that a permanent pool fence could have saved his life and it’s something I will never overlook again,” she wrote. “I hope amidst this pain, Trigg’s story will help prevent other children and families from suffering the same loss.”