By Nancy Prentice

Copyright newsweek

When my 19-year-old daughter outed my husband’s Alzheimer’s on TikTok last summer, I was blindsided.

But it was my fault. I’d said yes when Isabel asked me to record her showing her father the arm tattoo she’d designed in his honor in our driveway. At the time, the 30-second video of Isabel and Scott did not seem destined for greatness. It felt like a little favor to her, a memory for her iPhone files to be appreciated later as his disease progressed. Then she posted it.

Within days, Isabel came to me with excited panic as it blew up online. A few moments outside our house now multiplied into myriad online versions. Our family went on a turbulent ride around the world as the reel lit up an impressive circuit of online outlets, from ABC News, Newsweek, People and USA Today, to Hindustan Times and Good Morning America. My cousin called to tell me her friend in Puerto Rico saw it on their local Spanish CBS station.

With my 58-year-old brain offline and my insides on fire, all of my fears boiled to the surface. I intentionally had not told anyone about Scott’s recent diagnosis, and there were people I didn’t want to know about it. I was looking for employment in an era of ageism — who would hire me now, knowing I was his full-time caregiver? How would Scott feel about his illness going viral? How could this be happening without my knowledge? It felt like a shocking betrayal of my privacy.

Nancy Prentice with her daughter, Isabel. (Courtesy Nancy Prentice)

Isabel’s neglect to share a plan to upload the video on a public platform was something to process as our private moment gained absurd momentum. My secret hurt became a gaping wound as I worried that once the news was out, we’d become a different, sadder version of ourselves, the perception of others now clouding my intimate anguish. I did not want the pity of others to unravel our late-blooming love story.

We’d met two and a half decades earlier in the footwear industry in Manhattan. I was a 35-year-old advertising exec and Scott was the president of an Italian luxury brand, 13 years my senior. We dated around the globe until we eloped to the Florida Keys.

Crushed by three years of infertility, rounds of IVF found me walking cement trade show floors jacked up on hormones. A suggested break in my career by my trusted therapist yielded nothing but a distraction that, in the end, was the remedy for natural conception. Isabel was born in 2004, four days before I turned 40.

Zombie days and breastfeeding nights with early city meetings eventually gave way to physical and psychological weaning. Popping in for story time and serving goblin snacks on holidays kept me tethered to my clingy girl. But even my marathon-trained legs and hips that hauled heavy magazines gave out while carrying Isabel when she turned five.

My father noted her husky “whiskey voice,” which caught everyone off guard when our towhead began to talk, another early indicator of the emerging strong personality that never waned.

Isabel with her father, who has Alzheimer’s disease. (Courtesy Nancy Prentice)

After 23 years of nurturing our small family, the bubbles we waved never popped, and fantastical adventures continued with business travels abroad and many trips together to Boston, Los Angeles, Santa Fe, sailing the Connecticut shoreline, and a decade of July Fourths with friends in Maine.

Soon after, that floating version of me would hit the concrete. Nobody was prepared for the range of unexpected feelings that ensued after the video went viral except Scott, who was now super chill, with a state of mind that kept him that way. He floated on the surface while I trudged through the darkness.

Our situation produced an odd mix of publicity and melancholy that I couldn’t reconcile. The story hit differently for our daughter and millions of strangers on social media, who made empathic space for her honorary gesture, which seemed fitting for the masses. Our tragedy captivated millions in a relatable minute. I worried about doxing and ugly reactions that unhinged “likes,” “views” and “shares” might bring. With every kind comment, Isabel was riding the dopamine. I was salty, feeling exposed and resentful that my private agony was all over social media. I finally realized that having the truth out there was somewhat of a relief.

But not entirely, as I heard through the gossipy grapevine that family members were having backchannel conversations about us. Nobody called. Silos of goodness on Instagram that I’d previously never heard of were spreading us thin, from Bright Side and InspireMore to CafeMom and NowThis. This leg of the promotional flight lasted several weeks. I received a text from an estranged relative and another from a former boss who was not nice then and seemed insincere now. An old neighbor messaged, “Have you seen this?” as if I didn’t know the video I took was a thing. I remained hopeful that we’d ev…